I'm ready for this to be my last pregnancy.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not miserable. I don't hate it. I'm just ready to feel like myself again.
It's like I got a sneak preview of my life with multiple kids when Dean was born. But I was so damn emotional that I didn't appreciate it like I should have. I guess it was my lesson in life.
I also was only NOT pregnant for 9 months. (We got a positive when Dean was 10 months.) I didn't even put my maternity clothes away. Bottles are just staying in the cabinet for #3 to come around and use them in SIX MONTHS. <---whah? no way.
I was telling David last night I just want to wake up and have some energy. I want to wake up and drink my coffeeeeee. Oh, I miss my coffee. I want my house to be clean. I want to go grocery shopping. Like, big time grocery shopping. I know it may sound weird, but I love when my cart is full of healthy snacks for the kids, organic fruits & veggies, and ingredients for a new recipe I'm going to cook that night. I love cooking a meal that I know is David's favorite. I love when Emma says she is "hungee" for a snack, and I have one for her. It sounds simple, I know. But lately it's been more of a stress to find any food in this house, and the LAST thing I want to go do is grocery shop for food that won't sound good to me. This baby is a picky one. The pickiest yet actually. I usually find something I want at the store, bring it home, and let it go bad in the fridge because I (baby) decided we didn't want it. I bet we have eaten out more times in the last 3 months than the last year combined. It's not great for our finances either.
I want to go running and feel sweat down my back. I want to breathe hard and lift some heavy weights. I want to feel stronger and healthier. I want to put on my running clothes and just go, jam to music, and de-stress by myself for a short while.
I know this list is filled with wants, wants, and more wants. But it's my blog and I can want if I want to. (See what I did there?)
I am making a conscious effort to really ENJOY this pregnancy. I am becoming more aware that this will be my last and I am at peace with it. I am ready to move past the baby stage of life and get this toddler-show on the road. :)